Tuesday, March 30, 2010

We Live in a Broken world

So i'm sitting at the mall and I've been thinking non-stop for the past two days about what someone told me....we are broken people who live in a broken world. What a beter place to see and interact with broken people than in the mall. So many people trying to "fix" thenselves with clothes and makeup, drown their worries with shopping, or eating. Isn't that how we all are really? Lonely, broken people. We spend money on things that mean nothing, and are surrounded by people just to have... temporary fullfilment?

I watch these people, and I can't help but to see the the beauty in them. It's a choice really, to see the beauty in someone. It's so easy for me to get aggrivated buy people who don't buy vitamins from me, and try to avoid creepers that come in. Then again, they aren't "creepers", but broken men who are afraid to be alone, "unloved", and lost.

My revelation the past two days : 1.People are the way they are because they're broken. 2. We don't Fear God in the way we should.

You know i think thet're might be alot more healing in our lives if we Feared God more. When I say healing i mean it spiritually, sure God can heal you phisically, but I'm talking about our broken lives. Now when I say fear I don't mean we're all a bunch of little ants, and if we make one wrong move we'll get stepped on by the giant child (God). No. i mean there's a healthy fear , respect, if you will. That kind of fear is so strong, you wouldn't want to even think about throwing such a Holy God around like a toy doll. Because if we're being real isn't that how we tend to think. "we'll I'm gonna go to that bar, party, gossip group, (fill in the blank) and just ask for forgiveness later beaucause I know God will forgive me." Whoa Whoa WHOA! Now I could rant about how christians need to act need to act like actual Christ followers but thats another sermon for anotoher pastor. It's SOO much deeper. We shouldn't do it because we know how it would tear apart the one who knows us, good, bad and ugly and chooses to Love us, PURSUE US. You see the maker of Heaven and Earth, the Darling of Heaven , the only One Holy God who could love us reguardless of our brokeness. To comprehend that blows my mind. Our Lord God Almighty, deserves to be resected, exalted, honored, he deserves our best.

If the "thing" (whatever the thing is) is hard to let go don't pray for Him to take it away, get your face in HIs word and soak it up, because when your so deep in the word, You change. Seek Him, Dwell in Him, and God won't change your mind, He will completely change the person you are.

Last thing, lets get this straight. YOU reading this, whoever you are, don't get butt hurt. This was in no way targeted towards you. It's actually me, this is my blog and I do write things I have on my heart and I myself struggle with. I just remembered in the middle of my "self sermon" that when writing I'm not supposed to put "you" in a paper. I don't know why exactly, but I thought i should give props to good writing teniques after I've butchered them.

Until next time have a great day, week, month. Love to all my saints.
Remember Love God, and Love people.
J-Nasty

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Life, Loss, And Love.

Ok I actually wrote this last night before I went to bed.

Funny thing, I find it so much easier to write what I feel and think than to blog about it. Maybe because I feel the technology will fade away? Or because it's always changing anyway? I don't know. But what I do know is I really like this writing thing, it makes me think that maybe someday when I've passed away to be with my sweet Jesus someone may stumble upon it and it may be "history" to them. Haha In other news... I've had the strangest morbid thoughts the past two days, mainly about losing my family and I've very quickly come to the realization that naturally for selfish reasons I would not be okay with that.Then there is always that "God's in Control" sermon Patrick talks about popping up saying, "Our prayer is suppose to be 'do what You want God'", and it's never been harder for me to grasp then now. I guess my prayer now must be, "God help me to pursue with all that I an, let my every breathe, the beat of my heart be after who You are." Then again who is God? What characteristics does God obtain? Maybe this should be added to the prayer, "Show me, my Lord, who You are through your word, that I may be found in You,", Leading up to, "that in every and any circumstance I would know YOU are for my GOOD."

It's a hard and strange feeling, the thought of death, I guess partly because we really never do know when tragedy will strike. Plain and simple God is always for our good. We must seek Him to find Him. In the mean time, this is my prayer for you and for me, "Be still dear heart, do not be anxious, but love the people around you for love will break bondage, tear down walls, heal wounds, and restore life
. Love is far greater than death, it is stronger, gives hope, and has power. Remember this dear heart, Life goes by far to quickly for us to just put aside our love."
LOVE to you all
Julie

Monday, March 8, 2010

Hello Follower..... i would say followers but but , well you know. I feel like i'm only talking to julie and since I see her everyday I really could just talk to her in person....so what do I blog about you ask... well

Tonight I work by myself at vitamin world because jimmy has to study... booooo. And I just remembered I have no CDs to listen to bleh O well comission is all mine so I hope there are a couple inositol sales. =)

Next week my work scheldule is cut in half.... awesome!!! whoot whoot.


and that my friend.... is what I have to blog about... surely when I'm in Australia my blogs will get more interesting. hah

Monday, March 1, 2010

Now for my weekly blog. Two consistant weeks in a row, not ..bad.

Yesterday when Patrick was preaching I was trying to think of how it could pertain to me, I couldn't think of anything. So later last night something came up and I found how it pertained to me.....
When you don't understand why things are happeneing you have to just stop and say Ok God, I don't know what your doing but Your in control... Your will be done. And it's never an easy thing, but in my opinion having to let go of friends is one of the most difficult situations.

anyway sitting here watching a beautiful happy baby jump up and down.... and listening to demi lovato. I think when I get back from Hillsong I'll Go live at Disney world.. and be a Disney Princess. =) thanks for the chat.